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MARLANA: So... what is it you want to work on today?
JANE: Well, prosperity would be really, really good.
MARLANA: Okay.
JANE: This is something challenging for me, I think it is more lifelong. I think it is karmic. It just seems to be something that I haven’t been able to create. You know what I am saying?
MARLANA: Uh-huh. So do you understand manifesting?
JANE: Yes, I am a good manifester. Well, I used to be a really good manifester. Yet, now, I don’t know whether I’ve done so much of it that I’ve forgotten how to focus on it, or that I’ve gotten bored with it and I’m not doing it like I used to. Does that make any sense at all?
MARLANA: Yeah, I mean if you’ve gotten kind of used to it, then it’s less novel, so you don't use your energy in that direction as much as you used to.
JANE: I don’t think there is anything in the world that I ever wanted to manifest that I didn’t. And some of this has gotten me in a lot of trouble.
MARLANA: [laughs] Okay so we may want to brush up on this a little.
JANE: But now I realize that I started reading the Kryon stuff, on the internet, and that’s how I found your website...through Kryon.
MARLANA: Kryon’s awesome.
JANE: Yes, it was the Kryon web page! And all of a sudden there you were and I started reading your web page. And one of the things that I have understood from that information was that we are no longer manifesters. We are co-creators.
MARLANA: Ah, yes, absolutely.
JANE: Now I get that, okay, but then there is part of me that is denying my connection to God. And the God connection is so huge. We tend to make God small, like us human beings, because we don’t know any better. I mean we see it through our limited eyes, so that is probably where my stumbling block is.
And then the other thing that I am realizing is that I am totally empty right now. and I know that that is MY thinking, so I am really aware of that. I am moving back to Florida so that I can create a better financial existence. Let’s put it that way. So my family is sort of - I don’t even know how to explain it. I have a great love for my grandchildren, but my connection with my son is not good. So that’s not good. You see what I am saying.
MARLANA: Um-hum.
JANE: And then romantically – I’m 57 years old, so I’m not dead, but I find that lacking, so there’s lack and lack and lack. You see what I am saying.
MARLANA: Uh-huh.
JANE: So there’s a whole lot of emptiness right now. There’s been three years of it. And then the relationships before have been very karmic, or at least I feel that they are because I’ve always been drawn to any relationship... and I don’t know why this is... and I know you’re not going to make a judgment because that’s not your job to make judgments, but I’ve only been attracted to married men. I know that sounds totally bizarre.
MARLANA: No, not to me [laughs]. Not to me.
JANE: Oh, good.
MARLANA: No, no, there’s a reason for that. We just need to find out what it is.
JANE: It’s not that I go after anybody’s husband in particular, because I don’t. It’s almost like I wear this little sign around my neck, like "Don’t approach me unless you’re married".
MARLANA: Ah ha. So that’s gotten you into a lot of pain I would guess.
JANE: I haven’t had a relationship in my life, a significant relationship in my life, that has not been attached somehow to a married man.
MARLANA: Wow.
JANE: And that’s a lot of living.
MARLANA: Yes, it is, yes it is. But that’s definitely a place we need to look. I have several ideas already about what we need to talk about there.
JANE: Okay.
MARLANA: That’s great. Okay. And anything else?
JANE: Oh, I think that’s a lot.
[laughter]
MARLANA: Yes, it is.
JANE: Just to let you know, I am moving back to Florida from Pennsylvania, and I’m in the process of again letting go of everything that I have. And I do this a lot. I go up there and I create it and then I get rid of it.
MARLANA: Yep, okay, I suspect I have an idea of what that’s about. Okay.
JANE: Okay, so that’s kind of it in a nutshell.
MARLANA: Great. You’ve done an awesome job collecting your symptoms.
[laughter]
JANE: I thought I’d write a book and just call it “Crazy”.
MARLANA: That would work. <laughter>
JANE: An autobiography.
[ Marlana summarizes what Jane has said ]
MARLANA: Okay, well, so let me just give you a quick little overview of what I’ve picked up so far and then that will just let us know we’re on the same page. And then we’ll start digging in and going for clearing stuff.
So, the first thing in my head is the last thing you mentioned which was that you manifest really great and then it disappears or you let it go, or something happens to it. That sounds like what we call a vow of materialism. Okay. So, that’s probably not all there is to it, but that’s a starting place, and probably a good chunk of it.
And so what happens is that we get all these different lifetimes, and we build up beliefs, ways that we perceive the world in each lifetime. Many of us, have had lifetimes as Monks, Nuns, Priests or something like that, and we’ve taken very, very intentional vows, oaths or promises, things like that. And those stick on our souls like glue forever because those vows will usually say something like "...forever and ever", "...forever and always", things like that. And so, what’s happening is that you’re having sort of like "bleed-through"... there’s still a little part of you that’s trying to live those vows. My guess is that you also may have a vow of celibacy or chastity that’s stuck on you soul.
One way of you keeping that vow is by getting involved with married men because it’s always keeping you upset so you don’t really get to have a long-term relationship easily.
JANE: Marlana, I have to fight with myself not to go check into like a Buddhist nunnery, and I’m not even a practicing Buddhist – or a convent, I’ve even actually had moments that I think I’ll go be a nun or something.
MARLANA: There you go, that’s it.
JANE: That sounds stupid.
MARLANA: No, not to me. Not to me, not at all. Because that’s the "bleed-through". You see there’s parts of you that are made up of every life you’ve ever had.
JANE: Because I tend to wear uniforms all the time... and black... people will say... "what are you?" I’ve known that for a long time, there was probably a residue from past lives, because that would be very easy for me to do. I could do that. I kind of almost wish it as a weekly wish that I was living a monastic life.
MARLANA: So you may even want to look at that because it may be what you do need to do. So you might want to look at what is it that’s stopping you or what is it that brings that up for you. If it’s not a passion, if it’s not your heart’s calling, then we need to help release that part of you so it’s not constantly yearning for it.
JANE: I can’t believe that it’s my heart’s calling, but it just feels like that. I feel like I would be copping out on life. That would be my great escape. And I’m really good at that.
MARLANA: Uh-huh. Okay. So that’s what we would look at. But either way, whatever it is needs to be resolved. Because it’s definitely affecting you. It’s also affecting –
JANE: You really think that’s –
MARLANA: Oh, yeah, oh, yeah. No doubt. I am picking it up and you haven’t even told me.
JANE: Wow.
MARLANA: And it’s part of the money situation.
JANE: Oh, I love money. I love money! I can honestly tell you. I’ve figured this out. I admit it. I just adore it. But do you think I can keep it? I can’t. It’s like it burns. Like I’ve got to get rid of it. I can’t get rid of it fast enough.
MARLANA: There you go. And see that’s the most common thing that I hear from people who’ve had lots of oaths and vows. If you have a vow of poverty, there’s two main symptoms: Either you can get money easy but you can’t keep it, or you just cannot get it. You work and work and work and work and you just can’t make ends meet. So it’s one or the other.
JANE: The year I left Florida, I made $260,000.00, myself.
MARLANA: Wow.
JANE: I never had a career until I was 49 years old. That was five years after going into this career. But do you know what? You’ve heard of people quitting when they’re on top? That’s what I did. I can’t believe what I did. But that makes perfect sense.
MARLANA: Um-hum. Because if you’ve got a part of you that is very, very convinced that if you have money you’re going to be putting that between you and God, and you also have that desire to be spiritual in THIS lifetime, then that is a big huge clash.
JANE: Actually the clash was not to be spiritual in this lifetime. I resisted all forms of religion.
MARLANA: Yeah. And see, that makes parts of you jump up more. Because they’re saying see I told you, if you don’t follow these oaths and vows you’re going to go away from God. So they get stronger.
JANE: Oh, my, now I have – my religious belief systems, I mean I have an acceptance of the God part now. That there is this energy and I have the understanding that we do carry this part of God with us, because we are that.
I can remember as a 10 and a 12-year-old trying to explain to people that were religious fanatics, that they didn’t get it. That the vastness of God, if God was what they were believing or perpetuating that God was, would be so huge and so scary, that it would blow them away. And I remember telling them that like really, really young. And I remember the Baptist church absolutely hating to see me come through the door because I was such a problem.
And then I just – I never belonged to any churches. I just have resisted it all my life because I can’t go down that path. It doesn’t make any sense to me. So that’s how I ended up picking up the new age books. Going that road. So that makes sense.
MARLANA: Yeah, that’s good. Now another reason that you may be experiencing the emptiness that you talked about is that your vows and stuff are in your face more than usual. A lot of people have these things going on but yours are just yelling. And one of the things that you’re doing also is isolating and there are alos vows of isolation. So what you’re doing is creating yourself a monastery, basically that’s what’s happening.
JANE: I do live in a monastery type setting. People say that my house is "quiet as a church". And I live, I live very simply. I live very, very simply. Some people say, I can’t believe how you have this ability to just pick up and move. And I do, I can do that. I don’t want a lot of trappings. I don’t own a lot of clothes any more. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t want a lot of anything.
MARLANA: And I think that’s because you have a past life that’s really in your face. What I’ve learned about past lives is that as you reach various ages, they carry different triggers for a certain lifetime. Let’s say you’re 33 and for example, you start to develop a fear of having something around your neck and then what we discover is that you were hung at 33 in another lifetime.
JANE: Oh, sure.
MARLANA: And so that’s "bleed-through". That’s a real clear example. And so you may be in a particular stage in your life that you did end up in a monastery or probably something like that, maybe not quite that, and I’m guessing that you were in hiding, that you became sort of like a nomad. You had to be ready to pack up and leave at any moment and that’s what I’m guessing is happening right now.
JANE: How do you break through that stuff?
MARLANA: Well, we’re going to do that.
JANE: Boy oh boy. The other side of this coin, and there is another side here, is a huge – it’s becoming more and more frequent – is a depression. That I had never really wanted to acknowledge. I think we as females, you know, we chalk it up to being female. I have a tendency to have depressed moments. Now when I go down, and I know I’m going down, I know that I just have to go through this. It usually means just going to bed and spending 15 or 16 hours in bed. I don’t even want to live, and I am as healthy as a horse.
You can imagine wishing that you weren’t even on the planet while other people are struggling to be alive. And how selfish you feel when you have been given the gift of life and others are crying for it. That is huge.
MARLANA: Um-hmm. It is huge. Because what you’re really talking about when you’re depressed like that is you’re wanting a way out of the pain. Not so much death, but death seems to be what’s going to help. That seems to be the only answer at the time.
JANE: And I know darn well that I’ll just get over there and they’ll send me back. Kryon seems to believe that we choose to come back. We volunteer for this work.
MARLANA: Yes.
JANE: I’m not so sure.
MARLANA: [laughs] Well, one of the things that seems to be, is that when we’re on the other side, and assuming that we take Kryon’s view of this whole thing – we’re on the other side, we’re having this great big party and we’re planning what we’re going to do and all the great fun we’re going to have in the upcoming life... my guess is that we must be drinking.
JANE: You are absolutely right.
[laughter]
MARLANA: I think we must be high on something.
JANE: Why would we do this all over again? We’re sucking in some of those ozones or something.
MARLANA: Yeah, I suspect, because we certainly are not having fun when we’re on THIS side of it.
JANE: I don’t think so. I don’t think that this is all what it’s cracked up to be.
MARLANA: And I plan on remembering it this time when I go back. If I get to choose, I am not choosing this again.
JANE: No, I’m not going to do this again. I’m definitely not planning on taking this trip any more. There’s got to be a lot more to do out there.
MARLANA: Yeah, I think so. I’ll just be some spirit guide or something.
JANE: Oh, wouldn’t that be fun?
MARLANA: Yeah, that’s what I plan on doing next.
JANE: I’m always shooting my mouth off trying to help somebody else whether they want to hear it or not.
<Laughter>
MARLANA: Okay, so let’s see now. The where we start part. Let’s get your muscle testing going. Have you heard of muscle testing or kinesiology?
JANE: Yes.
MARLANA: All right. So this is the same thing that you’ve seen probably when you go to your chiropractor and you raise your arm up and they push on it. This is the same thing but this is a way you can do it by yourself without someone there to push on your arm.
Go ahead and stand up. Now what’s going to happen is that your body is going to lean forward for "yes" or "true" and backward for "no" or "false". You’re just going to relax and with practice it gets clearer and clearer and you’re more able to trust your answers. When some people are testing they actually lean way forward and it’s really easy to tell.
Some people are more subtle and some people don’t do it at all so we would try something else to test. We’ll just see what we can do.
So, what I’m going to do is make some statements and you’re going to say them after me and then your body will do whatever it’s going to do and you can tell me what it’s doing. Then what we’ll do is we’ll collect all these beliefs –
I’ll go through and help you find them. And I’m writing them down so we can check them in a few minutes. Then I’ll clear them and we’ll come back and check to see that they cleared.
JANE: Okay. This is wild.
MARLANA: It is really fun. You’ll like this. So we’re going to start out with something that you know the answer to, just to make sure that your body knows we’re talking to it and it’s paying attention and we’re getting the answers we expect. So, say "I have green hair."
JANE: I have green hair.
MARLANA: And just let your body go.
JANE: Okay. It just kind of wanted to lean back a little.
MARLANA: Okay, good, that’s what we want. Now, say what color your hair is.
JANE: I have gray hair. <pause>
It felt like it was moving forward.
MARLANA: Good, okay. All right. Now let’s go for some beliefs. Now these beliefs are beliefs that might make sense to you in this lifetime, but sometimes they don’t. What we’re looking for is beliefs that are blocking you. So we’re looking – we’re nosing around trying to find those that don’t make sense or you have beliefs going in two different directions, or whatever we find. And then we’ll go clear them. So don’t be worried, what we find we’ll clear.
Okay, say "I love myself."
JANE: I love myself. Oh right to the back.
MARLANA: Okay, now say "I forgive myself."
JANE: I forgive myself. Right to the back.
MARLANA: Okay, now "I deserve to be happy."
JANE: I deserve to be happy. Straight backward.
MARLANA: Okay, all right. You’re doing great. Let’s see. I want to check those vows. "I have a vow of poverty."
JANE: I have a vow of poverty. Right tilt.
MARLANA: Okay, you went forward?
JANE: Yep.
MARLANA: Now, let’s do "I have a vow of isolation."
JANE: I have a vow of isolation. No movement.
MARLANA: Say "I have an oath of isolation."
JANE: I have an oath of isolation. Back.
MARLANA: Okay. I’m going to mark it as "yes", so we’ll make sure that we get the vow cleared. Say "I have a vow of Celibacy."
JANE: I have a vow of celibacy. Back.
MARLANA: Okay. And a vow of chastity.
JANE: I have a vow of chastity. Whoa. Right to the front.
MARLANA: Okay.
JANE: That’s amazing. I almost tipped right over.
MARLANA: Yeah, I suspect I’m talking right to that woman. I think she’s the one that’s really in your face. Okay let’s see if I can catch her again.
JANE: By the way, I want to tell you I’ve got all these little goosebumps.
MARLANA: Well, I’ll tell you what. Why don’t you sit down and I want to talk to her because she’s right here. She is so here. I want to have a little conversation with her. So what I want you do to is to imagine her, I think she’s a nun. It looks like to me. Maybe even in the very last lifetime it could be. She looks – yeah, I think that’s what’s happening. She’s just about at your age right now, in her 50s. Okay.
You got her? Do you see her?
JANE: Um, okay, I’m envisioning a nun.
MARLANA: Yeah, you’re just imagining her. I know it feels like you’re just pretending, but that’s okay. Just pretend that you see her. Okay, now what I want you to do is, first of all in your mind, because she is part of you, you have telepathy. So in your mind, you can tell her "thank you for showing up right now". And in your mind you can let her know that she’s welcome. And that what you’re wanting to do is to introduce yourself and you are her future. So you want her to know that. And then you want her to understand that her time is done. She finished her lifetime. And it’s time for her to let go of all those oaths and vows and all that stuff. Now I want you to notice... how does she feel when you say that to her?
JANE: Relieved.
MARLANA: Good. Okay. So she feels okay and she’s ready to let it go.
JANE: Wow. I think that’s what I’m getting.
MARLANA: Good, that’s good. Oh yeah, you’re getting it or you wouldn’t be feeling it. You can’t make that up very good. Okay. So you’re going to thank her for doing that and we want her to walk through time. So you can imagine her just walking through time and she’s leaving behind all that old stuff. All those old vows.
JANE: Oh my. It’s like having your own personal haunting.
MARLANA: Yeah, and it holds you back. And it keeps you from really blossoming.
JANE: Oh my God.
MARLANA: Okay, she’s doing great. So just go ahead and keep her walking and every step she drops all of those heavy things and the stuff that doesn’t work any more. All the fear of God and the fears of men and all that stuff. She drops. And with her, she brings the love, the wisdom, the peace that she found, because she was terribly dedicated to God. That is true. She was very, very special, very holy. And very much wanted to be connected to God. Now she didn’t understand everything there was to understand, but she learned a lot. So we want all that stuff with her. She brings all that with her and leaves all the other stuff that isn’t working behind. Keep on walking her up and as you both feel ready, just let her merge and melt right into your heart.
JANE: This is amazing.
MARLANA: Yeah.
JANE: This is pretty cool.
MARLANA: It is cool. How do you feel?
JANE: You know, I always felt, but I never realized, this was almost like an entity.
MARLANA: It is, isn’t it? It’s kind of interesting. You don’t think of that as entities….
JANE: I haven’t realized this, but I always knew that there was something here. My God, it makes perfect sense. Now it’s starting to make a lot more sense.
MARLANA: Yeah. She’s been very, very, very close to you. And that’s how come you wear black, how come people are asking you what you are and what you do, and why you weekly keep wanting to go and be a nun or be a monk or something like that. That whole drawing toward being in total service.
JANE: But it’s so interesting that if I had that deep spiritual connection, which I’m sure I did, but on this side, this time, I had to really fight with myself to even get comfortable with the teacher Jesus Christ. You know?
MARLANA: Yes.
JANE: I could not ever accept that Jesus Christ is any more the son of God than we are. So I had a real problem with that.
MARLANA: So I think that you may find some answers with this Nun part of you, right here. Because I think that that’s what she did. She started out being a nun or whatever the group she joined. She started – this is just what I’m picking up from her. She started out with all those manmade glitches, the "religious" stuff. And as she truly got into her heart connection with God, she found answers that didn’t match the church.
JANE: That would make sense to me, why I would resist all forms of traditional religion.
MARLANA: My guess is that as she grew older and she began to know, because of her deep connection with God, she knew things. And I think she knew things like what you were talking about earlier, about Jesus.
JANE: You know, I have always said that the traditional church, I’ve told this to many people, that I’ve always believed that the religion, in the sense of religion, is really man’s marketing plan for God.
MARLANA: There you go, yes. And she knew that. And in her time...
JANE: She was disillusioned.
MARLANA: Absolutely.
JANE: And broken.
MARLANA: Yeah, and she saw the huge gap between what she had first joined as a young woman and what she had learned because of her true connection to God and the harshness of it was so vastly different. And my guess is that she started to talk about that and what I’m feeling is that she did need to run, that she had to be running and hiding because of her beliefs. Because she spoke up too much.
JANE: Wow, yeah.
MARLANA: And, so that’s where I think she is a whole big huge puzzle piece to everything that you brought up today. I think that’s why you brought it up. Because she needed to come out.
JANE: Because sometimes I’ll be talking to people, and I really don’t have any background. I don’t have any education. And I’ll be almost like I’m channeling.
MARLANA: Yeah.
JANE: I’ll just go.
MARLANA: And in a way you are channeling. You’re channeling you in a past life.
JANE: That is totally amazing... that little girl, that little nun has been so firmly etched in my soul.
MARLANA: And that is kind of why I suspect she was probably in your very last lifetime because it seems that the pattern that I see from people is that the more recent that lifetime is, the more prevalent it can be.
JANE: My feeling was that I probably didn’t leave that lifetime until just barely, before this one
MARLANA: Absolutely. I agree with you. Absolutely. I would say, within, maybe even minutes.
JANE: Yeah, I felt that I went out fast and came back in fast.
MARLANA: Uh huh. And, I think that’s because she was so closely connected to God, I think that she felt that she had a mission, that she really didn’t get to spread the word of what she had discovered in her connection with God. And, that’s how come you came in as a little child and there you are, 10 - 12 years old and you are saying exactly what she was saying when she died.
JANE: Oh, my God.
MARLANA: Incredible, huh.
JANE: Yeah, that’s kind of amazing, that it can be so continuous, that it can hold you so strongly on into the next life.
MARLANA: She’s very much alive and I think its okay now because I think she has begun to trust you. She is trusting you not to fall back into the old church ways.
JANE: Oh, she can do that!
MARLANA: Yeah (laughter)
JANE: It’s been very hard on me even sexually….
MARLANA: Yeah?
JANE: It’s been hard on me and maybe the reason that I have been involved with married men was all about no commitment.
MARLANA: Yes.
JANE: And, the marriage I had, was in name only. Maybe it was about not wanting to be committed. I didn’t even realize what marriage was. Marriage was all around me but I wasn’t seeing it or understanding it. Only just recently have I gotten to kind of understand what people really go through in marriages. It wasn’t anything that I ever wanted. Because I love that life of seclusion.
MARLANA: Yes, you're doing great.
JANE: You don’t know me from a hole in the wall.
MARLANA: That’s right.
JANE: I can tell you that when I was 18 I had a baby out of wedlock, that came back into my life, by the way, last year. We found each other.
MARLANA: Wow.
JANE: ...and that’s a huge story.
MARLANA: Wow.
JANE: Everyday I have a new story that (laughter). And again it was a married man, here I am,
MARLANA: Uh huh
JANE: my first time out... did it on purpose, knew that I would conceive, did conceive, every time I conceived I knew the moment of conceivement
MARLANA: Wow
JANE: and I knew what I would have.
MARLANA: Uh huh
JANE: every single time
MARLANA: Wow
JANE: and, I ended up going to a convent
MARLANA: uh huh
JANE: my choice
MARLANA: Uh huh
JANE: I chose a convent and loved everything in the convent. It was like, glory to me and it was amazing. It was a very safe place for me.
MARLANA: Hmm, pretty powerful I would say. This woman in your life. (laughter) has played a role whether you know it or not. So, okay, now that looks good so let’s check and see if we got those beliefs. That should show up about there. So let’s check that. Stand up. Now let’s make sure your hair is still the same color. (laughter) Say, "I have green hair". Okay, and then, I have gray hair.
JANE: I have gray hair. It’s not huge but it pulls me to the front
MARLANA: Yeah, that’s all you need, just enough so you know. Alright. Say "I have a vow of poverty".
JANE: I have a vow of poverty straight to the front.
MARLANA: Okay, so that one is still there. Say "I have a vow of isolation."
JANE: I have a vow of isolation. Now I am going to the front and I didn’t go to the front before.
MARLANA: Yes, that was the one we wanted to make sure to figure out but I think that one was being blocked somehow. Okay, good. So, we will check this one. "I have a vow of chastity."
JANE: I have a vow of chastity. That’s the one that I almost fall over.
MARLANA: Okay, so that one is still there?.
JANE: Yep, I almost went right over.
MARLANA: Okay, so that one is still strong. So that means you probably got some more. Okay, now because we are kind of getting close on time, I am going to go ahead and let’s see if I can find some other ones to test real quick.
JANE: This is so much fun.
MARLANA: It is fun. (laughter) Okay, let’s check some more beliefs around money. Say "money is evil."
JANE: Money is evil. Nothing.
MARLANA: Okay. Say "money is power".
JANE: Money is power. Nothing.
MARLANA: Okay. Try, "I am responsible for my life."
JANE: I am responsible for my life. Totally to the front.
MARLANA: Okay, good. What I think I am going to do is go ahead and clear these first. So, sit down and then we will see what we have left to work towards. Okay, so what you are going to do is just relax you are just going to imagine that the old things that you don’t need, the old beliefs and the old vows and all that stuff you don’t need anymore, are just going to float and go way up into God’s light, be transformed into peace and harmony. Then out of God’s light is going to come new beliefs and unconditional love and things like that. You Higher Self and God will decide what you need. We don’t have to figure that out. Okay, ready?
JANE: I think I am.
MARLANA: Alright, so you just kind of do that and it takes me about a minute to clear it and then we will check these to see how we did. Okay, here we go. <pause> Okay. How are you feeling?
JANE: I am fine.
MARLANA: Okay. Let’s check. Go ahead and stand up and say, "I love myself."
JANE: Okay, I love myself. To the front.
MARLANA: Good. Say "I forgive myself."
JANE: I forgive myself. Definitely to the front.
MARLANA: Great, you are doing great. And, "I deserve to be happy."
JANE: I deserve to be happy. To the front.
MARLANA: Yea. Alright, let’s check these out. "I have the vow of poverty."
JANE: I have a vow of poverty. To the back.
MARLANA: Yea!
JANE: Easy (laughter - both speaking at once).
MARLANA: It’s wonderful, huh.
JANE: It’s the greatest trick yet. (laughter - both speaking at once)
MARLANA: Oh, you wait and see how it works in your life!
JANE: I can’t believe it.
MARLANA: Okay, now, "I have a vow of isolation."
JANE: I have a vow of isolation. To the back.
MARLANA: Good. And, "I have a vow of chastity."
JANE: Oh my. This is the one that tips me forward really hard. Oh my, I have a vow of chastity. To the back!
MARLANA: Look at you. (laughter both speaking at once)
JANE: Isn’t that amazing.
MARLANA: Yeah, that is so fun.
JANE: How does that show up in my life?
MARLANA: Here’s what you can look for. What we have worked on mostly today is loving yourself and being happy and then we’ve cleared those oaths and vows. So, that is a little touch on everything we talked about. Those oaths and vows played a huge part in your life.
JANE: This is better than any psychiatrist..
MARLANA: Well, it definitely gets you moving, I will tell you that. <laughing> What it’s going to do is you will get unstuck. Okay, so how it looks in your life is well, let’s see. So maybe you would have, I am just making up examples that may or may not actually be what you would go through, but it will show you what I am talking about.
So let’s say we, for instance, we worked on "I love myself." Okay, and so, what I have done is that I have gone into your DNA and I have pulled out that belief that says you don’t love yourself. We have only done about three beliefs and some oaths and vows, that's all that we have actually tested, but it represents thousands of beliefs that are coming from all kinds of different angles and different lifetimes, all the different characters and all that stuff. So, there really are thousands of them being cleared and what I have done is gone into your DNA and found those. I am working right with God, we are doing the co-creating thing, and so we work together and we, he/she, shows me the genes that have these beliefs in there and then together we clean that gene up and then we replicate the cleared gene all the way through your body so it stays there and we also put it into the future so that it stays clear in the future.
JANE: This is exactly what I said would have to be done in order for real changes to happen. I have spent a small
fortune on everything you can imagine from Avatar to EST to Life Spring... I mean everything that has been out there, I have done it.
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JANE: It won’t work.
MARLANA: Yeah, you can eventually get some of it. You have to go all the way down to the roots of our issues.
JANE: How did you find this work?
MARLANA: Well, I found it with a woman who actually had bone cancer and she decided she just wasn’t going to die. So she put together everything she had ever learned and came up with this. (Theta Healing) And she healed herself. And she’s teaching it all over the place. It’s really powerful. And when you get it, it’s like there’s no limit to what you can do with it. You just have to find the key.
JANE: It is absolutely mind blowing, wonderfully amazing.
MARLANA: Yeah. So what you can expect in your daily life to see that this is really actually working is let’s say something happens and your normal routine is that you go inside and you start ragging on yourself. You start saying, oh, how could I have done that? I just know what I was thinking and I can’t ever get things right, blah, blah, blah, whatever your self talk might have been. And so then you have this session. And then something happens and that would be the normal trigger for you to go off and start doing that again. Then what happens after the session is that you would do that, you would start going, oh, how could I have done that, da da da da. And then all of a sudden you go, wait a minute, I don’t actually believe that about myself. What am I doing, talking to myself like this?
And so I call that the choice point. You suddenly, the choice point of, oh, I could choose to rag on myself, or I could choose to stop doing that and nurture myself. That’s the choice point. We always have that choice.
JANE: Yes, we do.
MARLANA: But we don’t always recognize it.
JANE: Yes, we have the choice. But no, we have this predestination. You can’t make those choices.
MARLANA: That’s exactly what happens.
JANE: We go down that same old road.
MARLANA: Over and over and over.
JANE: Yup.
MARLANA: Um, hmm. So what happens here is you get the choice point. It lasts just a second longer. You know, just that hair longer so you get it. It’s in your awareness. Then you notice it and you’re able to say hmm, you know what? I really don’t feel that bad about myself. I think I can choose. And I do. And you do. And you can choose it. And it really is easier. So the only thing that you really need to do because of this work is just to go yeah, I did it! I made a better choice. I’m so happy with myself. So you reinforce it. But you don’t have to do the affirmations and all the hard work that we do with so many of the various things that we do. But there’s still some process, because that’s part of, you know, that’s the way things are. There’s still some process, but basically what the mechanism is, that we’ve cleaned out the roots of it. And what you’re dealing with now is the habit. The lifelong habit of doing what you have believed to be true. And so that’s a much easier task, to clear that away, that habit away, than it is to get it out of the original space it was in.
JANE: I don’t know if it’s just because we have been focused on that nun thing for the last little while —
MARLANA: Uh-huh.
JANE: But I have to tell you the last thing in the world I want to do is go and be a nun.
MARLANA: Yeah.
JANE: As of this moment.
MARLANA: Interesting.
JANE: I mean I have to tell you, I really feel that.
MARLANA: Wow. So now you feel different, even though at the beginning of the session you were talking about every week that was your dream.
JANE: It was like a struggle to me, to stay away from it.
MARLANA: Uh-huh. And so now that is resolved, that’s
what we call it. That’s resolved. So you don’t have the struggle. That’s the key to this work. We go, we find out, we resolve it. We don’t throw it away, we don’t hurt parts of yourself. We don’t send them to the light. If they are a part of yourself, they don’t get sent to the light. If they are not part of you, then they do. That’s how it works.
JANE: This is fabulous. And I want to do some more. Oh, my God. This is so cool
MARLANA: It is. It’s such a fascinating, and you never know what you’re going to find.
JANE: What a great thought.
MARLANA: It is fun.
JANE: It’s very exciting.
MARLANA: It’s very fun, yeah. I just love it, cause every client is different. And every session’s different, even with the same client.
JANE: I’m sure. But I have to tell you, when I spoke with your husband I was very skeptical.
MARLANA: Um, hmm.
JANE: You know, of course.
MARLANA: Sure.
JANE: I’m giving this man my credit card. And I’m thinking, oh yeah, well, you know, here’s some more coral calcium.
MARLANA: That’s right. Exactly.
JANE: You just never know.
MARLANA: Well, there’s so much out there.
JANE: There really is. But this is really, really terrific.
MARLANA: Yeah. Well, it is. It’s a lot of fun. The session
itself is a lot of fun. But then you get into what actually happens in your life, and that’s just mind blowing.
JANE: The breakthrough.
MARLANA: Yeah. Because the breakthroughs happen. I mean it’s, I mean, I was skeptical, because I have a background as a therapist. And I’m used to taking months and years to get a breakthrough.
JANE: Oh absolutely, well that was part of your business.
MARLANA: Yeah, yeah. And it was a very slow, tedious process. And then, well, the only reason I’ve even gotten into this is because a friend of mine, well not even my friend, it was my husband’s friend. Otherwise I would have never done it. And he was saying, oh, you’ve got to try this. This is really good. And I’m like, "no, I’ve heard every gimmick under the sun."
JANE: Right.
MARLANA: And I know there’s no shortcuts to therapy, that’s just the way it is.
JANE: That was your belief.
MARLANA: It was, totally. And so I wouldn’t do it. And he went to a session with her. It was over the phone. And he had such an amazing response. And it wasn’t like he told me. He couldn’t even describe the session. He was like, "I don’t know. I just kind of did this rocking back and forth thing and was quiet, I don’t know." But you know what sold me was that I saw changes in the way he perceived his world, the way his thinking processes changed. And he wasn’t even conscious of the changes.
JANE: He wasn’t aware of it.
MARLANA: Yeah. And I was like, "holy cow!" Being a therapist, I knew what had happened. I knew how long it would have taken to do that. And I thought, "okay, that’s pretty good." And he did another session and another giant leap happened with him. And then I went and thought, "All right, I’ve seen enough. I’ve got to figure this out". And she did it with me and I had a huge, huge reaction and breakthrough and it was great. And then it just happened to be all the training was right then and in my own city and I thought "okay!"
JANE: Appropriate time.
MARLANA: That was what I needed.
JANE: And it was meant to be, wasn’t it?
MARLANA: Yeah, absolutely was meant to be. And it fits everything. I mean nothing of what I did as a therapist of the things that I kept, do I have to throw away. You know, it’s like this is where I was meant to be my whole life. This is everything, all my questions are being answered by this work. It’s powerful.
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